About 2 weeks ago I had some kind of weird revelation…just be thankful. Lately I’ve been in a very whiney, resentful mood. I was upset that I had to do the dishes, the laundry and everything else PLUS raise a human being and I was mad at my husband for not helping more. One night while I was doing the dishes (in the most passive agressive way possible) he came over and just told me that he was sorry and he knew that sometimes the dishes sucked. Then he reminded me that even though they suck I GET to spend my entire day with Hud. I GET to go to the park, and meet up with friends, and I GET to not have a set schedule and love on our sweet boy all day.
That caught me way off gaurd. I wanted to be frustrated or mad but I couldn’t. After about 5 seconds of him saying that all I could think was “Dang! Get over yourself!”.
This has been a turning point for me as a christian, wife, mom, and even as a stay at home parent. What we have on this earth has been totally given to us. We don’t OWN anything. God has provided 100%. Brace yourself…this even goes beyond what we need/want. I am thankful for the experiences I’ve had in my life. Both good and bad and the cool thing is that they are completely my own experiences. Everyone goes through different highs and lows and no one can judge one persons journey to the next. Simply put, there is a reason for everything and to learn to change your mindset and to just be thankful will provide a peace and freedom only God can give.
You stop worrying about what others have or what they have experienced. You stop being blatenly resentful and you stop being the victim. You just become thankful. Its always going to be a struggle but I’ve found that along with everything else going on in life being resentful and negative truly takes energy and wasted energy at that.
This is way deeper than I intended to get but this is what’s going on in our life at this point and time and I love it and how it ties so perfectly into our own messy adventure.
This is my first post so I thought this would be the perfect topic. I want to establish a little connection with our family to yours. Enjoy!
This time last year I was about to be induced with my first child. Thousands of thoughts were going through my head…Mainly, am I ready to be a mom? With that thought alone came excitement followed by anxiety and just over and over. At just the moment I would think “yes, we are ready for this baby” something would come up like just simply not knowing how to properly clean the bottles or not knowing exactly how many diapers I would need and that simple thought of peace would fly out the window. But I was, at the same time, SO ready to get that baby out! haha. No one will every truly understand a women’s mind and emotions. Word?
Well the year mark is almost here and all I can do is look at my “little” baby that’s not so little anymore. I keep looking at the time and remembering exactly what was happening at that moment a year ago. Looking back at this year I’ve learned a few things. One: It is a hard balance to find between wanting them to accomplish that next mile stone and just simply enjoying where they are in that moment. I’ve personally found that a whole lot of worry and stress comes from wanting them to always get to that next step and that just living in the moment allows us to enjoy them where they are. (And that’s another post for another day haha)
Two: All they want is to know that you are there and that you love them. Yes, my almost 1 year old has started throwing mini tantrums and yes, we’ve started disciplining but I feel that even if you might not see it in that moment showing that you still love them as they are getting in trouble is huge. My sweet boy is not that super cuddly little baby anymore but now looking back I was sleep deprived and took all the snuggles for granted. So when he takes a second and comes over from playing and gives me a hug or a kiss I take it all in. Those split seconds show me that he loves me and that he knows I love him.
Let’s be real. I’m feeling all the feels right now and I appriciate you taking out the time to read my FIRST post! This marks the first adventure of all our fun and messy adventures! Until next time!